Confession

I've done something really awful. Not deadly awful. But something I shouldn't have done.

You see, my greatest desire is to be somebody. I'm always overlooked, or left out. I know a lot of people say that, but I really mean it. At family get-togethers, I always hear about how smart Amanda is or how talented Erryn is. Nobody ever says anything about me. I'm smart, too! I'm in the gifted program at school. I only missed two questions on our state standards tests. But never does anyone mention that.

If I were a twin, I'd be somebody. You can't overlook twins. And better yet, I'd have a best friend for life. Someone who had grown up under the same circumstances as me, and who truly understood me. I'd always have someone to partner with at school, instead of hoping someone will choose me.

Sometimes I get so tired of not being anybody special, that I make believe I am somebody. Yesterday, I went online and pretended to have an identical twin. I told people we were actresses, and had been all our lives.

I didn't mean to hurt anyone. But, I lied. And that's wrong. I'm sorry. Please forgive me?

Love,
Ella (the one and only)